Why is it when I set out to be one way, I’m completely the opposite?
I guess that is the trouble you get into when you are trying to play it cool and end up feeling like you’re 15 years old again.
I feel sort of like a tool, because I tried to be something I’m not.
Aye, there’s the rub. Lesson learned: do not try to be something you are not. Just be you. Simple as that.
In other news, it’s been a great week. School is getting going, with TONS of reading and lots of stuff coming up. I’m enjoying that. Just ordered my DSM-IV-TR (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, Fourth Edition, Text Revision), and couldn’t feel more like a mental health nerd for being so excited at its impending arrival.
On Tuesday, I have my first phone interview with Weight Watchers. Boy, they aren’t wasting any time, are they? I just applied on Tuesday! While I’m excited about this prospect, I am a little concerned as to how it would interfere with school. I do feel that I have much knowledge to impart on the world about being healthy and staying that way, but my mental health career is my first and most important priority. We’ll see what the higher ups have to say.
This week was awesome at the gym. Three great runs over the last 5 days, as well as starting up strength training. I’m hoping to be totally buff by short-sleeve season, and swimsuit season. Plus, I’m hoping stronger legs leads to longer and faster runs, which I’m sure it will once I really get going with the training. I’d like to shoot for doing the half-marathon at the QC Distance Classic in May, but it may have to wait until the QC Half in September.
I’ve been sort of struggling with Maintenance these past few weeks. After being in a “losing” mentality for 5 months, it is somewhat hard for me to switch over to “maintaining,” which explains my huge loss this past week. I’ve been doing my best to eat more, but most times, I’m just not hungry. I’m hoping I am able to figure it all out over the next three weeks. While I am enjoying my skinny, healthy body, I am starting to notice some negative side effects of losing. Like my bony wrists, bony jawline, and hip bones that are starting to stick out a little more. I feel great, mind you, but with the running and exercising I do every week, my body is continuing to change it’s look and shape even though I’m not really going for that. Again, I’ll just take it one day at a time and see how it goes.
In the good news department, R and I are headed off to St. Louis today to spend the weekend and meet TWO Sheltie boys! Both are in foster homes after being rescued, and we are totally excited to meet both of them. Tucker, the Ike look-a-like, is 6 years old, and totally adorable. The other, Charlie, is only 8 months old, but apparently is a sweetie sweet, and house-trained to boot. We are looking forward to meeting them and spending a few nights away while Maddy is staying at the puppy hotel. If we like one of them (which I’m sure we will), we won’t bring one home for another couple of weeks.
Still missing my boy, but I know he is out there looking out for me, my old soul mate. I know he’d want us to be happy, and bringing another of his breed into our house would be such a joy and tribute to him. We would have never thought of ourselves as Sheltie people until he came into our lives, but he did and he changed us for good! Will report back after the weekend on how it goes.